its been a really long time since i've cared about my blog, combined blogs, facebook, friendster, emails (Sorry ping) and all those nonsense. what keeps me happy is just skyping with jean, hs and del. the 3 very impt (but not the only impt) people in my life. (kang u wld be in this list to if u didnt KEEP MIAING!!!!!!!!!) ever so grateful for em if not ill prolly nv get thru my emo days all. i truly think its amazing how best and good friends can still remain the same and even grow closer despite vast geographical distances. and how some of ur gd frens who are in sg can just grow apart or not see each other for months and months and years and years. i tell ya anyone who gives ya the i-cannot-make-long-distance-friendships-or-relationships-work is bullshit! jean n shan have been all the way in melb for like 4-6 years now and just take a look at us! (of course i understand that diff people diff wants, needs, personality etc etc) im just saying. very very odd. i've been emoing and emoing on and off for the past month. and i really have no idea why. its really qt bad. the kind that u start to ponder about life? and now that the exams are drawing closer and closer.. i guess it sorta makes it worse. but well. as of yesterday i have declared myself a self-proclaimed nerd and focus completely catching up with all my god damn readings which i didnt bother to touch the whole sem. like i said.. once a last min slacker.. always a last min slacker. so i've gotten rid or forced myself to not think about my library allergies and start picking up the slack. i've also decided to screw projects. i've been working way too hard for the projects so far.. not as tho im gna get any bonus points or anything so screw it. its studying for final exam time. i shall put project works at a corner until i can no longer shy from it anymore. just 2 more weeks 2 more horrible weeks to the god damn exams. and this time i hardly have any breaks at all!! my exams will be over in a week! can u blif it!! in 5 days to be exact.. 26-30. how delightful. which means no matter what i die die also must finish studying for it by the 25. GOD DAMN! talk abt unhealthy stress levels. well at least in 2 weeks my sis and shan will be coming back fr melb and i will be -oh crap- very distracted!!!!!! ahh shucks. well hopefully i can work my ass off now so i can spend time with them when they get back cos I DEFINITELY WILL!! somehow. force em to study w me or sth. ahahaha. even tho shan's exams are just over and my sis has alr graduated. LOL. ah screw this im going watch the new south park episode 'guitar queer' now. ahhaa. let me part with a few words or thoughts.

1) if you really go for her. i will be a lil disgusted, speechless but very indifferent as it doesnt concern me. good luck.

2) kang stop miaing!

3) you two still disgust n annoy me.

4) ping i miss u!! sorry for not replying ya email yet. i will soon! (:

5) anyone has more fam guy, simpsons or these kinda stuff to watch?

6) i am currently a phantom in hall. nv thought this day wld come.

7) hall food really really sucks n the survey aint gna change nothing so y bother? what we need is uncle vincent back damn it! when will we ever learn?

8) okay jess stop emoing n procrastinating.. study regardless of whether there are study buddies or u feel like crap or you're really tired or sian. all for the greater good right?

9) stop thinking about what could be and focus on reality woman!

10) why am i becoming an empty lifeless shell in so many ways?